So, I graduated from college in May…it’s now August with barely any money and no job acceptance in sight. Why was I in such a rush to be an adult?
I’m not living the fabulous adult life. I am living at home with my gracious parents. Sleeping in the same room where with the same shade of pink I picked out in 1999, that reminds me of a baby nursery. Why did I like this color as a kid? I did some rearranging of furniture to give my room an “adult” makeover, which is a little helpful but not the improvements I was looking for.
I don’t have the fabulous adult career. I have had one job interview, which ended with rejection. Let’s just say that was a set back. But don’t worry I have been answering the “so what are you going to do now” question. And my answer is always the same: Well I’ve been taking classes and riding horses practically my whole life, so I don’t know what I want to do with my life. But I am 22 and some people consider that “young.”
So, with one rejection already notched into my belt, I started what I consider to be a job search. Fun fact: every low level, entry level job, requires experience. At least one year experience, maybe two or more. Fabulous. How was I suppose to know exactly what I wanted to do while I was in school? All I really thought about was school, friends, boys (of course boys, especially this one boy…but that’s another blog), and horses (yes, I am an equestrian, horse loving female that would rather ride horses during my free time while I was in high school than actually having a social life, but we all make our sacrifices). So, the next question would be: Why not do something with horses? That’s a marvelous question and I wish I felt differently than I do. But I don’t think I want to work in the “Horse World” my whole life, emphasis on the *whole*. I have been riding horses since I was 8, I have sacrificed a lot for the amazing opportunities I was lucky and blessed to have by my supportive parents, but I like horses as my hobby, my outlet for when the world can be so mean, I’m not so wild about it being my job because I am afraid I might end up resenting it. It’s a great world and I love it, but I don’t know if that’s what I want my life to be.
I like meeting new people. I like going out. I like getting dressed in normal clothes instead of my breeches and t-shirts. I know people in the horse world like the same things and find a balance, but I don’t know if I want to balance the two anymore.
Basically the rant is to demonstrate how much I don’t know. Been going to school since I was like 3 or 4 and I still don’t know what I want to do. When I was younger I always thought I knew what I wanted to do: be an actress, be an olympic rider, to be a journalist, to be an editor. Now? I don’t what I want to be. I’m 22, I got time (I think) ((I hope)).
So, please join me and watch my changes with the changes going on in the world. I feel like this is going to be a year of changes…how fabulous!